When you are blue...

I usually don't write anything personal....however- I feel so blessed, I gotta write...Sometimes I feel really blue- I don't know why? It might be because of lack of sleep- doing homework at night and waking up early to finish my things- then to take care of the baby.  It might because I feel like we work so hard and yet it feels like we are going no where in our lives. ( In my mind, I know we are doing a lot-but sometimes I forget) It might be because I get tired from school, burnt out, tired of traveling every weekend. But a remarkable thing happened to me this week- I am being very selfish... Everyone gets blue every now and then.. It helps if you take a nap!...I notice when I am sleep deprived, I start thinking the worst. The thing is- I am so lucky!!! I have a wonderful husband. Both of us are students and we have a great place to live. We have hardly any dept. We have a wonderful daughter... She is such a joy!! We are so lucky for every blessing we have. After this semester, Bob and I have two more semesters of school. It has been a long road. We both decided that we are willing to sacrifice now, so we can both earn the education and live better lives in the future. That takes sacrifice. Yes, sometimes it is hard... It would be nice to have a real income...But this is the best time in our lives. We are so lucky. We feel so loved by our Father in Heaven. We have learned so much. We learned that we don't need everything, we don't need to settle down at this time of our lives... just as long as we have each other in our lives. This is a comfort! Sometimes, I get scared- Because we don't know everything...Our future is not laid out. Bob is going to Medical school somewhere. Next year we might be moving out of the state. That is of course if Bob can not get into the U of U. The U is a very hard school to get into. Bob will be lucky to get into any medical school. I get scared because, honestly we don't know how we are going to pay for a nanny next year. We were so lucky to have Bob's sister this year. She was such a blessing in our lives. I know something will happen to us so we can graduate.  The thing I know for sure is that Bob and I have faith. The Lord has never failed us. We are going to graduate. We are aiming for something higher. We are so lucky. I have a wonderful husband. He works so hard.  I am so lucky for him. We are so blessed!